AKU MENCINTAIMU (25 AGUSTUS 2011)
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Tak cukup daratan berbatas pantai
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Sedalam lautan
Selebar permadani biru
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Mengisi urat nadimu dengan denyut jantungku
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Walau tak selalu bicara
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YOU (FIRST) - 8 SEPTEMBER 2011
This is specially written for someone who i wish could be mine, but it's so impossible to happen. . .
I always seeing you at the back. . .
Coz i don't let anyone knows includ you. . .
I always in effort to caring you. . .
But never let you knowing that. . .
I always in effort there for you. . .
I'll not let you hurt. . .
I'll not let you alone. . .
If you ask me. . .
I'll give you. . .
Everything you want. . .
You... someone who i really loved. . .
LELAH (17 SEPTEMBER 2011)
Ingin aku selalu dekat denganmu
Walau berdiam tanpa kata
Walau penolakan yang kurasa
Aku lelah mengucap kata cinta
Aku lelah ungkapkan rasa yang ada
Tak ingin lagi ungkapkan kata-kata
Bagimu kata-kataku hampa
Bagai angin berlalu begitu saja
YOU 2 (29 SEPTEMBER 2011)
This is specially written for someone who i really loved . . .
I don't know what happen inside me. . .
I just feel so angry all the time if i hear you call the others name. . .
I want you know. . .
I. . the only one for you
But, why do you always ignore me??
See me. . .
I always there for you. . .
I always there beside you
Fiuhh. . .
Really. . I'm tired of all this
I'll try not to love you anymore
I'll try not to care to you
I'll try not to wishing you there in my live
I'll try not to wonder where you are or what you do. .
But. . .I´m sorry i can´t
*I fell in love with you* ..
YOU 3 (16 OKTOBER 2011)
I dreamt you last night. Perhaps it's my wish that I want to see you. Coz, I do miss you so much. And overall remind me one moment. When you were asleep, and your hair spilt over the pillow. I knelt beside you. I saw you. I saw your face. At the moment, I want to touch your face. But, I was afraid waking you. So, I was doing everything carefully. I held my breath just a moment. So carefully I laid down beside you, wrapped my arms arounds you. Then, I close my eyes. I could feel your breath, I could feel your hearths beating. Finally, I fell asleep hear your breath and hearth beating rhytem.
YOU 4 (28 OKTOBER 2011)
Getting over here, more n more convinced i am with the 'answer'. i know this feel. i'm very in love with you. n almost everyday i fall thinking of you. I had decide, I want to suppress this feeling to you. or if possible, I'll erase this feel. yea. . .hopefully, this is the right way for you and for me, n the others too. I just want to love you in the normal range. hmm... then, still in trying to not regrat what i had decided. I don't want to impose, I don't want to spoil, I didn't want to expect, I didn't to looking for the answer. I just want to enjoy with this moment. whatever what will you do. I'll accept you, if you come to me. I'll let you go, if you want to go. coz i realize, you aren't mine. maybe the people who see me like this will think I stupid. but, i don't care about that. coz, that's my manner to loving 'you'.
YOU 5 (1 NOVEMBER 2011)
Actually, I'm in between 2 choices. and I had to choose one: they are,
stay away or
closer (to you). and I prefer to
closer. coz the truth, to stay away from you. .it's imposible and never be.
Why. . .?? coz, you are the most important part of my life. very and very important. I never thought to stay away from you. even thought to keep you out of my mind for a second. not coz I can't, but coz I don't want you far away from my heart and my mind.
But the real, for this time and I don't know how long. I can't close with you. time, place, condition, situation, and so on. . they forced me to try to stay away from you. stay away are things I never thought and didn't suppose that I should be able to do this.
To be honest, stay away from you for a moment... I can not .. and I"ll not
But, its demanding situation. the situation unexplainable one by one ... too much
the expectation: to be close to you will be forever in the deep heart... someday
We'll see ...
HAPPY NEW MONTH for You. .Pray: all of your wish in November will be come true. . .amin
YOU 6 (1 NOVEMBER 2011)
Knowing you, are the most beautiful thing in my life
and I never thought I could love you
but this love only be buried in the heart without you know
but I hope someday you know the truth
I recognize I wasn't a perfected one for you
and I realized that until whenever I will never get your love
But I was just a human who has many dreams
I could be loved by you even if only a single moment
but that is my mind which will never become true
YOU 7 (3 NOVEMBER 2011)
I realized, during and until this time I was wrong. I expected your love. Although I knew whenever I wait, your love will not grow for me. Stupid of me, I have not been able to say: I don’t love you anymore. Coz, I can’t let you go away from my mind. I don’t want to say: goodbye. Coz, I still want to try. And I don’t want to say: I give up. Coz I'm sure, I still be able to move forward. While it’s true that my sense: painfull. But, I'm still thinking: loving you is the most beautiful gift in my life.
YOU 8 (24 NOVEMBER 2011)
I lost my book
sometimes I found it
sometimes I couldn’t
But I could surrender fully
I lost my pen
sometimes I found it
sometimes I couldn’t
but I could surrender fully too
I lost my key
but eventually found it
and though I'm not going to find it
I’ll surrender it
Coz, I’m sure I can change all of them
but then I lost you
as sad as it sound
I lost your smile
I lost your smelt
I lost your touch
I lost your gaze
I lost all of yours
but never found all of them until this time
and I can change or replace them with anything
losing you it’s like losing my grasp
I can think clearly
I shattered without you
I’ll you back
I’ll you closer to me
Please, don’t leave me
THE LAST OF YOU (26 JANUARI 2012)
To be honest I couldn't cover the disappointment and hurt in my heart. Because I still put affection and love to you. But, His provisions was apply. I must not be selfish. If at this moment you have choosen 'the other' (yours, right now). I must sincerely. This is the best way from Him. Not just for you. But, for us.
History has been etched. We can't be denied our togetherness. Love has grown, affection also has flowing, rooted in the depth heart. All this will be kept. Stored doesn't mean forgotten. But stored as a memory. Memories to organize themselves to get better. I must accept the fact tolerantly. And it should since the beginning of this feeling appears. This is the answer to my prayers and my begged Him. For me, your happiness is the primary.
Now, we have our separate ways. I'm with my path, you with your path. However even so, I want you to keep it running at my side. Don't ever leave me anymore.
.NOW, I JUST WANT TO SAY 'THANKS' FOR YOU. .
. .THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIEND. . .SPECIAL FRIEND ^^